Me and my little family went out into the forest today.
We were just going to be with the «silence of the nature»
I open the car door and felt the clean energy of the forest fill me up immediately.
I looked down on the ground where I was just about to put my foot down. There on the ground, there were many ants, so there was one jump and bounce and Lillian was safely on a rock.
My husband understood he didn’t have to ask me for help, and he fixed everything. My son laughed and looked at me and we laughed even more.
I spend some time on an outside meditation and looking curiously at my husband. Our son and he was fishing.
My mind never rest and words and pictures begin to take shape. I have to write down the words and enter wildly on the phone.
I meet the gaze of my husband and his bright blue eyes sparkles towards me. He has already been tan and his strong arms pulsating towards me .
He reads my body language and how I smile at him. He understands what happens in my heart and mind.
I sit on the stone and write and put a strawberry into my mouth.
He comes to me, whispers something in mye ear, and I love it when he does that. I hide the rest of the strawberries.
I grab his arms and put them around me and I felt his heart rhythm.
I did not finish the poem..but I got the forest’s clean air in my lungs, the water’s energy and be with those who mean everything to me.
..and I have smiled and laughed a lot ..
We get a trout, who came home with us.
And I… I know what to do with the rest of the strawberries tonight 😉
It was a bit cloudy in the mountains today, but it does not stop Lillian from an outdoor meditation.
I sit down on a stone, feel like I get in touch with Mother Earth and listen to the sounds. The silence is the right word, but it is only broken by the stream running next to me.
First, I take a look at the stream that trickles. Look at the water and the patterns in it. I see the stones on the bottom and it flows.
I close my eyes and my soul goes on adventure.
I stand on the highest mountain and look down on the dense deep forest and cry out loud over mountains, plains, fjords and other fauna. «I managed it» …
I see for myself the «ladder» I have climbed up and down so many times. When I have climbed a step up, I have fallen three steps down again.
The road from the abyss and just getting the «head over the water» has been a battle on my own.
I imagine the steep and slippery mountainsides where nothing has been used.
Then it has been to walk sideways a good distance with the ladder on the back which weighs extra.
Sleeping and heavy it has been, where mouse steps have become a nightmare and I just want wings like a bird so I can escape over the challenging mountains I have in front of me.
Again, I want to welcome my thoughts as if they are guests in my house with me. Taking them kindly in and when it’s time to go, I say goodbye and close the door.
Under meditasjon har jeg lært meg aksept. Å lære det som er- når det er.
Det har tatt meg tid, men for meg er det en nøkkel til å godta meg og mine tanker og følelser.
Trene på å være bevisst oppmerksom. Trene mine sanser og tankemønstre.
Jeg tror det er flere som kjører oss fast i et tankemønster og dette blir en vond spiral. Jeg har det, men nå går det bedre.
Dette er ikke bare å skru av en knapp, fordi jeg har ingen slik knapp på min kropp.
Jeg øver på å ha kontakt med meg selv, og ikke sitte å se på lenger i mitt eget liv. Med dette mener jeg at det er bare jeg som kan endre hvordan jeg vil ha det. Med hjelp av ulike metoder mestrer jeg dette.
Jeg hadde bare ønsket at jeg kunne dette for lenge siden.
Meditasjon var et ord jeg bare hadde hørt og det samme var det med mindfulness.
Når jeg begynte for noen år siden å bli nysgjerrig på dette og få føle dette på min egen kropp, forstod jeg verdien av det.
Å være oppmerksom på det som skjer inni meg selv, observere mine tanker og følelser.
Tro.
-Orkidedatter-
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Meditation
During meditation I have learned acceptance. To learn what is when it is.
It has taken me time, but for me it’s a key to accepting me and my thoughts and feelings.
Exercise to be consciously aware. Exercise my senses and thought patterns.
I think there are several who drive us into a thought pattern and this becomes a bad spiral. I got it, but now it’s better.
This is not just turning off a button because I have no such button on my body.
I practice to have contact with myself and not to look any further in my own life. By this I mean that it is only me who can chang…
I had just wished I could do this long ago.
Meditation was a word I had only heard, and so was mindfulness.
When I began to be curious about this a few years ago and feel this on my own body, I understood the value of it.
To be aware of what is happening inside myself, observe my thoughts and feelings.
Jeg har trent på Mindfulness en stund nå. Det tok meg tid å forstå og lære. Jeg har litt dårlig tolmodighet og ønsker at ting skal skje igår, om du skjønner.
Etter at jeg har blitt syk og ikke hadde det noe godt med meg selv ble jeg nødt til å gjøre noe. Jeg har alltid vært interessert i annerledes treningsformer og det åndelige i oss mennesker.
Det er ikke så annerledes nå og heldigvis mere anerkjent.
Uansett, jeg ble med på kurs både i yoga og mindfulness. Dette gikk ut på den praktiske delen og lite forklaring på hvorfor. Jeg savnet dette. Altså en dypere innsikt.
Når jeg skaffet meg denne har det gått lettere for meg.
Det jeg begynte med var grunnholdningene i Mindfulness:
vennlighet- ovenfor det jeg opplever, kritiske tanker, kroppsfornemmelser.
åpenhet- for det jeg har opplevd, tilstede med alt som dukker opp i oss selv.
nybegynnersinn- å oppleve det jeg sanser som om det var første gang.
tålmodighet- overfor meg selv og tanker, sammenligninger, følelser, sanser.
utholdenhet- anerkjenne hvordan det er akkurat nå uten å «flykte «.
mot- til å være bevisst i kontakt med det jeg opplever og konfrontasjoner av. sider ved meg selv som kanskje ikke jeg visste jeg hadde og som jeg unngår.
Jeg fant dette veldig utfordrende og tenkte «mørkt» med engang, men jeg gir ikke opp og ga det en sjangse. Jeg er dypt takknemlig for det.
Jeg har fått det mye bedre med meg selv psykisk, lytte og vende oppmerksomheten innover i meg selv, og blitt mye bedre på å stoppe opp i hverdagen, puste og sanse og skyve de mørke tankene vekk.
Hvordan: jeg ønsker tankene mine velkommen som om de skal være gjester i mitt hus hos meg. Tar de vennlig imot og når det er på tide å gå, sier jeg hyggelig farvel og lukker døra.
Det krever at du er god på å visualisere.
-Orkidedatter-
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Mindfulness
I’ve been training at Mindfulness for a while now. It took me time to understand and learn. I have a little bit of patience and want things to happen yesterday, if you understand.
After getting sick and not having any good with myself, I had to do something. I have always been interested in other and different types of training and the spiritual in us humans.
It’s not that different now and fortunately more recognized.
Anyway, I attended courses in both yoga and mindfulness. This went into the practical part and little explanation of why. I missed this. So a deeper insight.
When I got this, it’s been easier for me.
What I started with was the basics of Mindfulness:
Kindness – above what I am experiencing, critical thoughts, body sensations.
Openness – for what I have experienced, present with everything appearing in ourselves.
beginner’s experience of what I sense as if it were the first time.
patience – to myself and thoughts, comparisons, feelings, senses.
perseverance – recognize how it is right now without «fleeing.»
opposed to being conscious in contact with what I experience and confronting. pages of myself that maybe I didn’t know I had and which I avoid.
I found this very challenging and thought «dark» at once, but I don’t give up and gave it a chance. I am deeply grateful for that.
I have been getting much better with myself mentally, listening and turning my attention in myself, and becoming much better at stopping everyday, breathing and sensing and pushing away the dark thoughts.
How: I want to welcome my thoughts as if they are guests in my house with me. Taking them kindly and when it’s time to go, I say goodbye and close the door.
Art: my own @orkidedatter
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