In the mountains far in the big wide tundra she feels small. If Mother Earth decides to shake a little, she has no other choice to join in on what’s happening and let fate determine the outcome.
She sees so far the eye can reach, and the sun shines from the most beautiful blue sky. With paper and pencil she has next to her, she lays down in the snow.
She makes a snow angel … and embraces herself with the energy of nature.
The blue sky reminds her that there is no end, nor any start up there, but a whole eternity. She closes her eyes and feels.
Feeling the force of her heartbeat and her Viking blood running in her vains.
Her blood bubbles and she can feel the presence of something she doesn’t know.
Only her imagination can put an end to her dreams ..
Music notes appear as a movie in her head. Every note has its sound, every sound has its picture and every picture gives her a word …
Where the ancestors have settled from the old times it gives her roots from a time she has not seen, but which she can only feel.
The meditation helps her to sense the nature and it feels like home.
Far down there she can hear the sound of Norway’s longest river. It crumbles, rush and flows like in a rosewood thirst for water.
At the end of the long miles it runs into the ocean and becomes one with the world.
She feels lucky to experience this. It smells like winter and spring. A summer mood at the bottom of the river where withered leaves turns into grass and moss.
Where the little sprouts of the trees and flowers are fighting for life to flourish. Everything will come to life after King Winter’s farewell.
She’s finished now, and thanks her spirit and soul, and thanks Mother Earth for this time. She knows she’s coming back in the summer. With a hope to flourish like the mountain in hope and faith.
At home in the sunset, she is grateful. She writes it down in a book she calls «Orchid Garden». Here she fills up the blank sheets with positive things and experiences.
She sits quietly until the sun has gone completely down. She can still feel the warmth of the sunset that spreads her colors around the world with a prayer to all of us for love.
In the sunrise the next morning there is a new day …
It’s quiet, only the birds that chirp a jolly song break the silence. Only the trees in her garden whiz a gently good morning and flutter with their big branches so her hair flutters.
She always has pen and paper with her, and this time she writes the notes in her mind in the form of a poem and she has her paint brush and colors ready.
What turns into life in her drawing book will she discover soon…
Du og jeg i solnedgang som brenner i mine øyne og hud. Vi ser på hverandre og jeg føler meg som et bål. Jeg er i full fyr og jeg gløder. Jeg ser i dine øyne at du er betatt, at du elsker meg og er begravet i min sjel. Akkurat -her og nå-. Du klarer alltid å finne det gode i meg. Det er så mye jeg skulle ha sagt.
Orkidedatter
Solen er på vei ned, jeg er på vei opp. Du og jeg sammen skal bestige fjell i natt. Du får meg alltid til å smile og føle meg elsket og bra. Jeg trodde aldri jeg skulle føle igjen. Det er vanskelig å finne de rette ordene til deg fordi du fortjener bare det beste. Jeg har gitt deg mitt hjerte, du fanget min sjel og sammen er vi fyrverkeri. Jeg vil alltid huske deg slik.
Når du tar på meg kjenner jeg det brenner i mitt innerste meg og hjertet mitt står i brann. Allikevel gjør det vondt. Er jeg god nok for deg? Solen går ned og mørket kommer snikende frem. Jeg hutrer, men jeg er glad i mørket. Jeg føler meg best da. Du tenner en gnist i meg som får mørket til å bli noe av det vakreste jeg vet om. Det er så mye jeg skulle ha sagt.
Du og jeg i natt smelter sammen som to vanndråper som passer sammen i hverandre, samtidig så forskjellige med ulike farger vi farger hverandre og verden vi lever i. Håper jeg alltid husker oss slik.
Du vet alltid hva som er best for meg, og jeg følger deg hvor som helst. Allikevel gjør det vondt. Er jeg god nok for deg? Du fortjener bare det beste, og er det meg? Du trenger noe mer til jeg finner meg selv igjen. Det er vanskelig, og i mine dårlige tider frykter jeg meg selv.
Når jeg har det bra-farger jeg mine skjøre vinger og sprer de utover og «flyr». Jeg er i min dypeste sjel og inn i mitt innerste meg og fyller meg opp i mitt hjertet med kjærlighet. Jeg dykker langt ned for å finne «diamanten» i meg. Det er så mye jeg skulle sagt.
Jeg mister kontrollen, jeg vet jeg er et rot, jeg kjemper og jeg vet ikke om jeg vinner? Jeg trenger tid, men det er ikke vanskelig å elske deg. Jeg er trygg hos deg, og du finner alltid kjærligheten i meg. Det er så mye jeg skulle sagt, men jeg finner ikke de riktige ordene.
Solen går ned. Du legger dine armer rundt meg og legger meg forsiktig ned. Kysser meg fjærlett på munnen og nedover halsen. Mitt hjerte dunker og brer sin flamme rundt i hele meg. Jeg står i brann, må ha deg, du fanger meg og brer din trygghet og kjærlighet rundt meg. Jeg hikster og du klemmer meg varsomt. med ømhet du kjærtegner hele meg. Jeg håper det ikke er en drøm. Jeg vil alltid huske deg slik. Det er så mye jeg skulle sagt, men jeg finner ikke de riktige ordene.
Jeg er redd for å miste deg fordi jeg elsker deg. Allikevel gjør det vondt. Jeg har åpnet mitt hjerte og sluppet deg inn. La oss stoppe verden, la oss elske til evig tid. Du får meg til å føle meg levende, alt er ekte -du er alt jeg trenger-
Mine skjøre vinger lærer å fly igjen og jeg har så mye jeg skulle sagt, men jeg finner ikke de riktige ordene. Jeg vil alltid huske deg slik. I solnedgangen, i natt og jeg vil ikke miste deg. Jeg velger å åpne opp mine vinger å gi meg fult og hen til deg. La oss «fly» sammen. Vi brer rundt oss med kjærlighet, smelter sammen og vi er ett.
Jeg vil alltid huske deg slik.
-Orkidèdatter-
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I will always remember you like this.
You and I at sunset who burn in my eyes and skin. We look at each other and I feel like a bonfire. I’m in the full guy and I glow. I see in your eyes that you are captivated, that you love me and are buried in my soul. Just here and now. You can always find the good in me. There is so much I should have said.
The sun is coming down, I’m on my way up. You and I will climb mountains tonight. You always make me smile and feel loved and good. I never thought I should feel again. It’s hard to find the right words for you because you just deserve the best. I have given you my heart, you captured my soul and together we are fireworks. I will always remember you that way.
When you touch me, I feel it burns in my heart and my heart is on fire. Anyway, it hurts. Am I good enough for you? The sun goes down and the darkness creeps forward. I hut, but I love the dark. I feel best then. You light a spark in me that makes the darkness become something of the most beautiful I know of. There is so much I should have said.
You and I tonight melt together as two water drops that fit together in each other, at the same time so different with different colors we color each other with and the world we live in. Hope I always remember us that way.
You always know what’s best for me, and I follow you anywhere. Anyway, it hurts. Am I good enough for you? You just deserve the best, and is it me? You need something more until I find myself again. It’s difficult, and in my bad times I fear myself.
When I feel good, I color my fragile wings and spread them out and fly. I am in my deepest soul and into my innermost mind and fill myself up in my heart with love. I dive far down to find the «diamond» in me. There is so much I should say.
I lose control, I know I’m a mess, I’m fighting and I don’t know if I win? I need time, but it’s not hard to love. I’m safe with you, and you always find the love in me. There is so much I should say, but I can’t find the right words.
The sun goes down. You put your arms around me and put me down gently. Kisses me featherly on the mouth and down the neck. My heart is pounding and spreading its flame around me. I am on fire, must have you, you catch me and bring your security and love around me. I hiccup and you hug me gently. with tenderness you caress all over me. I hope it’s not a dream. I will always remember you that way. There is so much I should say, but I can’t find the right words.
I’m afraid of losing you because I love you. Anyway, it hurts. I have opened my heart and let you in. Let’s stop the world, let’s love forever. You make me feel alive, everything is real – you’re all I need –
My fragile wings learn to fly again and I have so much to say, but I can’t find the right words. I will always remember you that way. In the sunset, tonight and I will not lose you. I choose to open up my wings to give myself fullness and to you. Let’s fly together. We are around us with love, melting together and we are one.
Orkidèdatter 