Stikkord: alt begynner med deg selv

Meditation..

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(This post is only in English)

It was a bit cloudy in the mountains today, but it does not stop Lillian from an outdoor meditation.

I sit down on a stone, feel like I get in touch with Mother Earth and listen to the sounds. The silence is the right word, but it is only broken by the stream running next to me.

First, I take a look at the stream that trickles. Look at the water and the patterns in it. I see the stones on the bottom and it flows.

I close my eyes and my soul goes on adventure.

I stand on the highest mountain and look down on the dense deep forest and cry out loud over mountains, plains, fjords and other fauna. «I managed it» …

I see for myself the «ladder» I have climbed up and down so many times. When I have climbed a step up, I have fallen three steps down again.

The road from the abyss and just getting the «head over the water» has been a battle on my own.

I imagine the steep and slippery mountainsides where nothing has been used.

Then it has been to walk sideways a good distance with the ladder on the back which weighs extra.

Sleeping and heavy it has been, where mouse steps have become a nightmare and I just want wings like a bird so I can escape over the challenging mountains I have in front of me.

Again, I want to welcome my thoughts as if they are guests in my house with me. Taking them kindly in and when it’s time to go, I say goodbye and close the door.

-This is so powerful to me, and help me a lot.

Thank you nature and Mother Earth.

-Orkidedatter-

Meditation – mindfulness

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(English text after the Norwegian)

En tidlig morgen jeg begynte å tegne og male idag. Solen stod opp og Norge viser seg fra sin beste side når det gjelder vinterværet her jeg bor. Jeg føler for å ta noe yoga og meditasjon ute, og pakker sammen og drar.

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Jeg mediterer av og til og bruker ulike meditasjonsverktøy som er virkningsfulle for meg. Jeg har prøvd mange ulike meditasjoner og jeg har funnet mine favoritter. Jeg prøver forsatt nye om jeg lærer dette. Jeg må prøve dem noen ganger for å få opplevelsen, for å få igjenn for meditasjonen og ikke minst gi avkall på energi som ikke tjener meg og få ny energi.

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Det tok meg litt tid å forstå og lære meditasjon og mindfulness. Å møte sin egen kropp på et dypere nivå var vanskelig for meg. Mange ganger utløste det flashback og det ble veldig tøft.

Etter traumebehandling har jeg blitt bedre, men…

Jeg følte at sjelen min prøvde å fortelle meg noe, men jeg var god på å IKKE lytte. Til en dag jeg leste noe som stod i ei bok. Jeg måtte bare følge hjertet mitt.

Jeg dro på kurs i healing og meditasjon. En verden av det alternative åpnet seg for meg. Jeg finner ikke andre ord enn at min sjel har kommet hjem.

Jeg fikk veiledning og hjelp her som jeg aldri kan få sagt med ord hvor takknemlig jeg er, men jeg tror de vet.

Jeg øver og øver. Jeg famler litt og bruker litt tid. Jeg blir kjent med kroppen min og mitt sinn på en helt annen måte enn hva jeg trodde.

Å være tilstede i akkurat her og nå. Å oppleve øyeblikket av kroppslige fornemmelser, følelser, drifter, impulser og tanker og mer bare ved å vende oppmerksomheten mot dette.

Jeg skal klare det. Jeg skal bli en bedre utgave av meg selv og med hjelp av å finne nøkkelen til aksept må jeg følge denne stien.

Jeg bare vet at dette er veien å gå.

-Orkidedatter-

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An early morning I started drawing and painting today. The sun rise and Norway showed up from its best side when it comes to winter weather here I live. I feel like taking some yoga and meditation outside.

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Meditation – mindfulness.

I sometimes meditate and use different meditation tools that are effective for me. I’ve tried many different meditations and I’ve found my favorites. I still try new when and if I learn this. I have to try them sometimes to get the experience, to get to know the meditation and to give up energy that doesn’t serve me anymore and get new energy.

It took me some time to understand and learn meditation and mindfulness. Meeting my own body at a deeper level was difficult for me. Many times it triggered flashback and it got really tough.

After trauma treatment I have improved, but …

I felt that my soul was trying to tell me something, but I was good at NOT listening. One day I read something, and I knew – I just had to follow my heart.

I went on a course in healing and meditation. A world of that alternative opened to me. I find no other word but my soul has come home.

I got guidance and help which I can never say with words how grateful I am, but I think they know.

I practice and practice. I grope a little and spend some time. I get to know my body and my mind in a completely different way than I thought.

Being present in -right here and now-. To experience the moment of bodily sensations, feelings, impulses, and thoughts and more just by turning your attention to your heart, soul and deep inside you…

I will make it. I’m going to be a better version of myself and with the help of finding the key to acceptance I have to follow this path.

-I just know this is the way to go. –

-Orkidedatter-

Thank you for reading, and make you a great day…🦋

My broken heart…

.Lesetiden er 5 minutter.

I`m so incredibly appreciated by all my followers and readers out there in every corner of the world. I am so grateful and can’t thank you enough. I posted this post a few days ago and I got lovely respons, and I want to share this in English. This is written from the depths of my soul and from my heart.

 Dandelion children, broken heart, coping with life, quality of life, et knust hjerte, barndom, childhood, freedom, mental health, psykisk helse, shame, fault,

Having experienced and experienced a trip to the «Abyss» that I call it – and still working my way up to be as healthy as I can, many thoughts and feelings have been through my heart and my head. Someone I can pass on, others I have to learn to live with.

 

I have often thought of this with mental health and fear in the soul and emotional breakdown. In relation to this with physical pain, such as: a bone fracture. If I could choose, the choice would not have been so difficult, I would have chosen a bone fracture. Physical pain goes over and the body heals itself, you get well again ….

Why can’t it be that way with the psychic pain? … I can have patience with a physical wound and wait, it’s over. My mental pain has no waiting time. I’ve been waiting long enough, trying to trick my mind, but no. The wounds in the heart are still there and linked with me – emotional thoughts and emotions. A heart full of sorrow because of my time here on earth and what it has given me. Grief over my «luggage» from childhood, adolescence and adulthood. Where my emotional pain in my broken heart evokes anxiety that looks for places of refuge in nooks and crannies inside my body where it can germinate and grow with pace with both depressed and destructive thoughts that bring with it an emotional burst that gets tougher.

 

I often feel «trapped». «Caught» because I stopped living and do not give myself my own freedom. I have become «blind» and stuck to a «dead end». I live in the «shadow of myself». I deceive myself because my heart is hurting – it’s broken over the years – I just didn’t understand it until now.

 

Starting with «blank sheets» is not easy, but no one has told me that life is easy, just because someone is more fortunate than others. I must accept the cold reality. There are no more acts or chapters in this life. I go back to the beginning as far as I can. Try to erase or erase parts of my life. It is not possible, but I try to make the bad memories smaller and weaker and that they do not control me. The process is bad, but I do not want the «shadows» from the past …

My «shadows» from the past tell me

 

-you don’t deserve love-

 

-you will never be happy again-

 

-You ruin everything you take in-

 

-you don’t deserve others to love you-

 

– this broken heart will forever be there and your pain will be unbearable –

 

– when you find happiness «the» must be empty

 

and so it goes on …..

 

My broken heart, I have begun to push together again. It gets many scars, big scars, but ultimately not open wounds, but it gets me back, but life doesn’t get the same. What is broken is never the same again. It will always have cracks. I can «paint» over so it’s not visible on the outside.

As a butterfly I grow and change and hope I find my true colors in life, a new meaning of quality of life that finds my fragile «wings» and I can «fly» and soon, just soon, be on the right path …

I’ve started to «fly» a little …

 

 

-orkidedatter-

 

 

Thank you very much to my family, especially my husband and my son❤️