She looks in the mirror.
She is lost, cold and sad.
She has stepped footsteps in the snow, they
have disappeared.
Melted away with the sun.
Will never return.
It has taken a long time to open up old
wounds.
Scar as she must learn to live with.
She crushes the mirror, the blood flows
from her hand.
It hurts, but not as bad as her pain within.
She will be whole again and.
She is scared, alone and miserable.
She’s a mess.
She picks pieces ofherself up bit for bit
again after being crushed.
Thinking back on her past.
A child, a little girl, one childhood.
She was good at being a nice girl.
She was good at making herself invisible.
She was good at different survival
strategies.
She was good at protecting herself.
She was good at many things that children
should never be good at.
The flashbacks stand in line in her mind as
a horror movie you will never watch.
She try to take care of her mind and heart.
It hurts so much.
It never goes away.
A twisted mind that made her so
exhausted.
She lost her grip.
Her childhood lay over her like a black
blanket.
She didn’t want to live.
She didn’t want to die.
Because she knows that death gives no
return ticket to life.
She wants to disappear a little and come
back when everything was fine.
She has a mental pain that is always
associated with thoughts and feelings.
A heart full of grief because it is shattered
over the years
and evokes anxiety that is looking after
escape places
in nooks inside her body where she can’t
grasp it and
the anxiety can sprout and grow in line
with dark thoughts.
She often feels trapped.
As in a spider web spinning around her
body and squeezing,
and she can`t breathe.
She stopped living.
She did not give herself her own freedom.
She lives in the shadow of herself.
She deceives herself and says it will be
good again.
It won’t be good again until she grabs
herself.
There is no one who can walk this heavy
road for her.
Only she can.
No shortcut.
It hurts to acknowledge that she needs
help.
She has several things in life to live for,
they deserve her healthy and the best
version of her.
When she was at her darkest spot in the
abyss where she had to make
a choice, to heal herself and be
whole again she started
writing, painting and drawing.
She started blogging to reach out to others
with the same pain.
If she could just reach another person with
her voice and tell
them that you are not alone.
It warmed her heart.
She felt a spark within again.
Then she sought help, and it is not a shame
to apply for this.
After hours and hours she was talking out
about her many of hers trauma,
her soul began to flourish again.
She again found the artist soul in her.
Starting with blank sheets is not easy.
She had to close a chapter in her book
about her life
that was challenging to accomplish.
There are no more chapters in the past,
it is over now.
Only then, the joy in her heart began to
grow.
She accepts the painful reality she
experienced in
all her childhood over years.
She fades the painful, sad and hurting
memories and
fills up with good memories and new colors
in her life.
What she still practices a lot is how to not
bully herself,
because she became a expert on that and
talk herself down, because over years she
was never good enough.
The process is tough, but she doesn’t want
to see
the shadows of the past again.
She has started gluing pieces together.
Pieces of her broken heart.
Pieces of a soul in grief.
Many and big scars with a life lesson she
shouldn’t have had,
but eventually no open wounds.
There will always be cracks in what is
crushed and
glued together, she cannot hide it.
She tries to paint over with her paintbrush
so it should not
be visible on the outside.
She interprets herself as a fragile butterfly,
because they mean something special to
her.
Step by step, as a butterfly grows and
changes,
she hopes to find her true colors in life.
A new meaning.
She is fragile and vulnerable, but has
become braver and wants to fly.
She has been happy again and soon, only
soon can she be on the right path in life.
She has started to color her white wings
and started flying a little.
It is only her mind that can grab itself from
the abyss with some help and be good
again.
Never gives up.
A dandelion child.
Time does not heal all wounds, but she can
learn to live with the scars.
There is a glimpse of hope in the broken
mirror.
-Orkidedatter-
Long one but thoroughly enjoyed reading this! 💕💕
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Yes, I am sorry, I will put it on my post it is a bit long, thank you. I really appreciate your read and feedback🦋
Enjoy your day❤️
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My pleasure! 💛💛
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nice poem…thanks for share
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Thank you🦋I wish you a nice day.
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The last line!💖 There is hope in the broken mirror! You needed all the lines to set the mood. Amazing poem. I just got lost🙂
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Wow, thank you, that was quite a compliment🦋you warm my heart.
Enjoy your day.
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My pleasure🎉
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❤️
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SMiLes Short one to
me as stories about
Coming out of
Darkness are most
Important to Give and
Share for if we live long
Enough most of us will
Face a challenge like
This.. All Art is healing
My Friend if only in
This World Love
Is the Real God the
Currency.. the Pay
Grade.. the Only Pay
Rate now that counts
For Power and Status
The Love We Give And
Share with each other
Best Expressed
By Arts
Of our Souls no
Longer Owning each
Other but setting
Each
Other
Free With
Love the touch
oF LiGHT With
No Gravity
But
Up my
FriEnd..:)
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This is so wonderful, thank you so much🦋
Bless you.
I really appreciate.
Enjoy your day.
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My Pleasure…
Same to you
And Your
Husband
My Friend..:)
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Thank you🦋
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😀
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No story is too long when sharing from the heart. Thank you so much Lillian for sharing the brokenness!
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Thank you Steve, you touch my heart, I really appreciate🦋it means more to me than you can imagine.
I wish you a wonderful day.
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Very poignant
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Thank you so much🦋I really appreciate.
Enjoy your day.
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Aaw Lillian, I hope time will heal them, even though you said it wont. But you know what, I can’t tell you exactly what to do to be happier, but every time you need someone to vent out we are always here your blogging community. 🙂 Love the artwork too!
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You really touch my heart and soul❤️thank you so much. I feel honored and humbled because you write such a wonderful words.
It means more to me than you can imagine🦋I have tears in my eyes now…. because, they are the answer to your feedback, because I am speechlees.
Thank you❤️
I am thankfully for that my art speaks to you, thank you.
🦋
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My pleasure. Feel better, get more sunshine and a nice morning walk. 🙂
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❤️
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So well done, tears here. Tremendous courage and strength, awe-inspiring.
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Thank you for reading and your comment, I really appreciate it🦋
Didn’t mean you should cry, but I understand.
Enjoy your day.
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One day, one piece, and piece by piece you will find Peace!
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Thank you🦋You are so sweet, yes I will🌸
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When writing what we feel, it’s never long enough 🙂 It’s really a great way and words to express a painful journey, a long struggle and a brave decision to embrace life along with it scars! I’m sure all these scars are the reason for the beautiful painting that resulted and it’s a very unique painting
Choosing life is always right, but not all the people are brave enough to! Death and surrenders are always easier!
Salute to the bravery, the strength, the love and the will of life ❤
Have a great day!
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This was heartfelting, thank you so much🦋your lovely words make me wanna cry, but it is a good cry if I can put it that way in English. I am very grateful for your words, it is mean more to me than you can imagine❤️ I am so grateful for thay my art speaks to you🦋
Thank you so much❤️
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Tears of joy are allowed ❤️😊
Well they were words from the heart after reading your words and of course your art can speak to me, I know these feelings very well
Have a great time ❤️ 🦋
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Thank you🦋I had a feeling you know these feelings❤️
Make a great day, and thank you again🦋
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🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️😊
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A wonderful poem Lillian! Even though it speaks of tears and pain, there is also the healing and hope of something better. The butterfly heals, gains it’s colors and flies better than it ever could before. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings here Lillian and your art is truly beautiful as well. have a wonderful evening!😃🦋😺
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Awe, Steve… I read your feedback and I can feel a tear sneaking out from my eyes, thank you so much for your support🦋I have no words to thank you, but I am really grateful.
It’s mean more to me than you can imagine.
I am so happy you think my art is beautiful too.
I hope you have a great day with Muffin😺
Thank you🦋
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Thank you Lillian, Muffin played, had her lunch and is sleeping once again.😸 I have to start removing the seal from the windows today, and that is a lot of work. These are old windows in this apartment so they need to be sealed each fall to stop drafts, now that must come off. Nice day to do that though! So off I go.😄
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Take care🦋
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What more can I say, I am proud to be a follower of your blog, your poetry, thoughts and writing are a work of art!
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You don’t need to say anything my friend🦋I can feel your heartbeat and I am so grateful to have YOU as a follower too, but the best of all, I can follow you and read yours always wise words.
Thank you.
I really appreciate that my words and my art speak to you🦋
I hope you have a nice day.
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It doesn’t seem long! But it is definitely beautiful, breathtaking and brave!👌❤️❤️
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Wow, that was quite a compliment, thank you so much🦋it means a lot to me. ❤️
I hope you have a wonderful day.
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☺️ my pleasure and well deserved! ❤️👏
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Thank you so much🦋❤️
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Nei det er ingen shortcuts, men det skal nok gå – selv den lange veien kan være god ♥️ masse tanker og klemmer
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Tusen takk❤️god klem tilbake vennen❤️🦋
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Wow. This is so good!!!! What a powerful piece. Also that ending pulls it together!! I’d love to hear it in Norwegian because I bet it sounds amazing that way, too!
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I am sorry I am answer this comment to late. I found it in my spambox and I don`t understand why…
Thank you so much. You are always give me such great feedback so my heart jumps harder….
Yes, I know it sounds amazing in Norwegian too…
Enjoy your day.
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😀 You are so sweet, as always!!!
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Thank you🦋likewise😀
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Good morning and mine starts by reading your beautiful poem, you are so talented and the way you describe every thing feels so real and a life, hugs❤️
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Awe, thank you so much my friend, you fill my heart with so much joy❤️
Your feedback means more to me than you can imagine🦋
I wish you a wonderful day.
Hugs❤️
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Your words made me visualize and see it all. Thank you for sharing something I can truly relate to. This poem was breathtaking.
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Awww, thank you so much. You fill my heart with joy. I deeply appreciate it.
Enjoy your day.
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Aww, thank you so much. You fill my heart with joy. I deeply appreciate it.
Enjoy your day.
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Beautiful ❤️
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Thank you, it means a lot to me❤️
I wish you a great day.
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